Well, I know "what" I am tolerating; I guess the bigger question is "why" am I tolerating "it"? When I really think about it, I know the answers to both of these questions.
For those of you that don't know, I have been on a major personal growth journey for many years but particularly in the last 3 I have been digging pretty damned deep. I'm on a personal mission to move from the "place" that doesn't feel right, the part that keeps me up at night, the part that makes me question my self-worth and move into a place of fun, love, connection and the feeling of "being enough".
I want fulfillment damn it! I want to live my life aligned with my values, change my karma, start laughing again, begin to feel alive and for the most part, I am doing a fantastic Grade "A" job of it.
So, you ask, what's the problem?
We all do our best to move forward but sometimes we allow life to get in our way, or should I say, we allow ourselves to get in the way of life. And that's what I'm doing right now. I'm getting in my own way!
I fluctuate from sadness to anger because I know my values are being stepped on and because I'm allowing it! The reality is that it doesn't matter what the "what" is and as for the "why", well, that doesn't matter either. What's really important is that I'm stuck - and this is of no benefit to me!
Physician heal thy self! My client said that to me last week - hmmm, she has a point, coaches are people too! :) Time to sit down and look at my values - have they changed, what's my current perspective, what emotions am I deflecting, what am I pretending to be or not be.
Well, I guess it's time to do my homework...I'll let you know how it goes! :)
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